I've said it once and I'll say it again:

Getting hit in the face sucks.

But, as I've said so many times whenever I get struck in Muay Thai, it's my own damn fault.

Last night I was sparring with a new guy. A big guy. At least a foot taller than me and maybe 200 pounds. He had a pinched nerve or something so we decided to just box, no kicking. At first I thought this was great, I could just work on my punches, but I quickly realized this guy had a significant reach on me. At first I was doing alright, countering his punches or dodging them, but I kept eating punches because I didn't keep my chin down, and I was going to have to figure out a way to get close to him without getting hit over and over. Normally, I'd just kick him and work my way in since I have long legs, but that was out. Finally, I figured I'd just have to go balls to the wall and take the punches, and then keep moving in and get a good combo or two. This was probably not a good idea. I brought an extra level of aggression to the table which I shouldn't have done.

So I went after this guy, and I wasn't thinking, and didn't put my chin down and left myself open. I can only blame myself for the straight punch he threw. He had gloves on, but that really didn't prevent me from seeing stars. I've been hit in the face before, but not like this. I couldn't see. I backed off from fighting and held onto the cage for a minute or two. I was fine, I just felt like such a weakling. I was pissed off because Sensei has been telling me for weeks that I need to keep my chin down when fighting, and although I was aware of it, I wasn't really thinking about it, just like I wasn't thinking of staying on my toes so I could have moved out of the way.

I was thinking, "How do I get in there and land a good strike?" I tend to think on the offensive, but act defensively. During sparring, I wait for punches and try to counter and land a combo. I hate my hesitation, because I don't want to be afraid to fight, and I think I am a little bit at this point. The best I can usually do is try to execute a combo we learned in class that day. Things go so fast during sparing and I think too much.

I got back to sparing after taking a minute, but I was totally gunshy the rest of class. I might as well have just been standing there with my hands down. At one point, I just froze and got hit in the face (lightly) by another student, and he asked me what was wrong. I was pissed, and shaking I was so upset at myself. I was relieved when we stopped sparring and I could just leave. I wasn't fighting smart anymore.

I know what I need to work on, but it's not coming together fast enough. And now I'm taking Jiu Jitsu, so I have a whole new sport to focus on and dive right into. I have to use my time more wisely and work on my weaknesses one by one. I can't just rely on classes 3 times a week and and expect things to fall into place.

Weaknesses
Keeping my chin down
Staying on my toes and moving around
Judging distance for kicks and punches
Dropping hands when being kicked or punched in the gut
Forgetting combo attacks
Going too hard in sparring sessions and running out of gas, and making stupid mistakes
(not) Breathing out through the mouth and in through the nose

First thing is keeping my chin down. I'm spending this week focusing on that. Sean bought me a small tennis ball to put between my chin when I'm practicing. I know I'm going to be chasing that little ball all around the gym. Good thing no one brings their dog to practice.