I wrote a post on myspace a little while back about how I was going to change my ways. I was going to drink less, stop smoking, eat better and train more. That was 2 weeks ago, and I'm not any closer to doing any of those things. On top of which, my knee feels really weird and I don't know what's wrong with it. Coming face to face with an actual injury that could put me out of training terrifies me.

So, I did what I always do in these situations; I talk to Claire and let her berate me for working too much and not making enough time for myself. I told her I was having trouble focusing and she asked me what I was thinking about. So starts the list(in no particular order):

1. Job 1
2. Job 2
3. Marriage responsibilities
4. Household responsibilities
5. Dog
6. Mentoring
7. Fundraising
8. Running
9. (Possible) injury
10. Money
11. Quitting smoking
12. Semi-quitting drinking
13. Friends

I think I only got to about 7 things before she stopped me. "No wonder you can't focus!" She explains. Apparently I'm doing too much, or thinking about too much, or something. Well....yeah.

But I don't know how to simplify. Actually, I think I don't do enough. I've always thought that. I feel like if I could just organize my time better, I could do so much more, be a better wife, friend, runner, etc.

UGH.

Even I know that's not true. But to actually stop myself from doing all these things, well, it feels like I'm giving up.